Hey ,
Remember me,I did a few blog posts then fell off the side of the planet? Well i’m back, the cloud has lifted and I can tap away at this keyboard again.
It would seem I may have been ever so slightly depressed for the last couple of weeks,and wanted to curl up in bed and stay hidden away. It happens from time to time and I do generally manage quite well on my happy pills but for some reason the not so awesome stuff got the better of my positivity and I stacked it!
I let too many negative comments, too much lack of sleep and not enough control get the better of me.
From nowhere the mean little voices that say such awful things seeped into my subconscious and I went on a downward spiral.For anyone who has every suffered from depression it can be totally disabling and if only it was as easy as pulling yourself together!
Its like a fog has appeared and all you can see is grey, there maybe moments of fleeting sunlight but they are soon consumed.You feel worthless and like you are a burden,like you shouldn’t be around people in case your misery is catching and that its not fair to be around people and subject them to your black cloud!
Thankfully it didn’t last too long and today I have woken up happy and positive.I refuse to let the things that are not so ideal cloud the bloody awesomeness that is life and in my life those things are my husband,children,family and friends.They can’t make me happy that’s my job and its work in progress but almost everything that makes me happy is a result of having such wonderful people around me thank you so much.
Please have a read of my next blog it will be much happier I just wanted to get that off my chest, I know im not alone so I wanted to share my thoughts in the hope it will help someone else feel less alone.
Peace out.
